feeling good shouldn’t be so hard. I just have a barrage of negative thoughts, especially lately, that feel overwhelming. I have an office job now, I’m sure I’ve gained weight, and I’m feeling my body in an uncomfortable way. whereas I used to feel that getting dressed was fun, I am now just camouflaging myself however possible. I have a closet full of clothes I’m not wearing because I feel acutely aware of every part of my body and how grotesque I feel in it right now. I feel like I’m backsliding down a road that took a lot of work to go up the first time. I’m just not sure how to deal with it right now.